Lesson #4 – Sometimes things don’t go according to the plan and that’s okay (Unless you are a control freak who doesn’t cope well with change)

I’ve been trying for MONTHS to write a new post, obviously without any success. I’ve had such wonderful feedback and support from so many of you about my previous posts that I wanted something in the same vein.

When I started this blog, I had a very detailed (wait… what? That doesn’t sound like me….) plan in my head. The plan went a little something like this: write a blog about all the crazy things involved with pregnancy, labour, parenting and being a stay at home mum.

Pregnancy, labour and being a wife and mother overwhelmed me so much that I thought writing it down and putting it out there would help. I felt that I could share things from a perspective I hadn’t seen much of – honest with a bit of a giggle/entertainment thrown in. This sounded like a great idea IN THEORY.

I LOVE writing and I always have. Writing is how I try (sometimes I succeed and sometimes I don’t) and solve my issues when they feel unsolvable. It helps me to empty out all of the thoughts that swirl around in my head and gives me some perspective. Writing allows me to explain myself in a way that my words just can’t always manage.

The question I’ve been asking myself for months is, “Why can’t I just sit down and write like I always have?” The answer is this: I’ve been trying too hard to make this blog into something that it’s not and in the process have forgotten why I started writing it in the first place.

The last few months have been challenging for so many reasons and I worried that if I couldn’t write something that I felt was witty or entertaining, nobody would want to read it.

As grateful as I am for everyone’s encouragement and support of my blog, I’d lost sight (yet again) of why I started this all in the first place. I wanted to put my thoughts out into the world to clear my head and maybe just maybe someone would read it and feel something.

I’ve recently realised that while I take really great care of my son, I would have to say that I am not good at taking care of myself. I’m actually really crap at it. This is something that I’m working on and being able to write is a big part of that. It’s something that’s just for me and I don’t have much else in my life where that’s the case (welcome to parenthood right?!).

The bottom line is that I may not always be able to write posts that are witty and entertaining BUT I will always write posts that are honest.

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